Not Running Anymore

Bless me father I have sinned,
I'm not sure where to begin
I won't name names or where I've been,
But I've been there and back again

No Hail Mary's will save me,
You learn to live with memories,
Here, slip this C note up your sleeve,
Just stay inside until I leave

I've been running, always running
Never have both feet on the floor
I've been running, always running,
Now I ain't running anymore

The hand of time may tick no more
Let darkness fall upon this door
No waves to wash up on this shore
I won the fight but lost the war

I've been running, always running
Never had both feet on the floor
And I've been running, always running
Now I ain't running anymore

There were those who I have loved
Who've given all, have given up
I pushed your patience and my luck
It wasn't love I didn't trust
It wasn't you, or me, or us
You've shouldered ifs, and ands, and buts
It's that way OK, I've said too much

But I've been running, always running
Never had both feet on the floor
I've been running, always running
Now I ain't running anymore